The New Evil

Don't get me wrong. I use Facebook as much as the next person. But it's getting a little out of control. Not only do I now know the moods, activities, likes and dislikes of everyone I've worked with, gone to high school with, or even just run into who happens to have a Facebook account, but I'm also forced to feel like an old woman.

Earlier today, someone sent me a group invite from one of those "I'm from....(whatever shit town you grew up in)." So, of course I joined. Then I spent the next few minutes scrolling through the other 240 members. It's a sad, depressing day when you see the children of your high school teachers in college. I remember these "kids" when they were just that (I'm from a small town where everyone knows your name- like "Cheers" only with more booze). So seeing the 19-year old son of my 7th grade science teacher and thinking "daaaamn" is more than a little disconcerting.

The thing is, I usually don't even think about how old I am. Everyone in my social circle is around the same age and my coworkers are all older. But there are times when it hits me. Jesus I'm 30. Time to do something productive. Time to get a move on.

Of course, this results in anxiety- for which my doctor just recently prescribed a remedy. Then I start thinking about the fact that I am taking medication. And the numerous side effects. And of course, I start worrying. I scour the web for information on any possible side effects. And for every story of how the drug works for people, there are 10 people telling of how the drug made them "go crazy-" most of which is total bullshit. So, being that I have anxiety issues, I start worrying about that. It's a terrible downward spiral of worry.

Maybe I should just avoid Facebook.

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Quirky

I found this funny post on Rands In Repose about quirks and it really got me thinking about all of mine- and how many I have in common with other people. I mean, some of these are direct quotes from the other post. Guess I'm not so weird after all.

1. switches have to be up when on, down when off.

2. everything has to be in even numbers (unless divisible by 5). Radio & tv volume, etc. I really don't like odd numbers.

3. The toilet paper roll has to go over, NOT under.

4. I drop the last word off sentences a lot, especially if I am nervous.

5. M&Ms must be eaten in even numbers. You wouldn’t want one side of your mouth to get jealous while the other eats an M&M, would you?

6. whenever I get a paper coffee cup sleeve, I _HAVE_ to line up the fold with the join in the paper cup. Always.

7. I always sort the jelly and jam by flavor when eating at restaurants that put the carrier on the table.

8. I try not to step onto broken parts of pavement.

9. aligning cutlery in restaurants

10. Browser tabs and task bars have to have their items in specific order, or else they’ve gotta be closed up and re-started.

11. Even after I *know* I’ve put my keys into my bag, I must double-check that they’re there before closing car door or trunk. Total OCD.

12. Whenever I see an open cupboard or drawer, I have to close it. I can’t bring myself to leave the room with it open

13. I can't STAND when someone takes something out of the microwave with time left on it and doesn't clear the time.

14. I eat Skittles & M&Ms in a specific order- the color I like the least first.

15. Everything on my desk has a place and a placement. I know when things have been moved. However, my bedroom is a mess and my bathroom counter is chaos.

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You

You are the most amazing person I’ve ever met. You’re so much more than I ever thought I deserved or could get. You’re the person that makes me strive to be better. I know I don’t always show how much I appreciate you, but I truly do. I can’t remember anyone before you and I hope there is no one after you. I wish that you were my first. I wish I could have given you that gift. But I will work for the rest of my life to show you just how special you are and how much you mean to me. And I hope I have a chance to. There aren’t words that are strong enough to convey how amazing and wonderful you are.

This is the first time I have had someone in my life who makes me a priority and I don’t ever want to go back to the way things were before you. The past year and a half have taught me more than you can imagine. I only hope that I have taught you and improved your life as much as you have improved mine. You truly and completely make my life better.

I love you.

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30 Days

Today is huge for me. It's my 30th day of being smoke-free. I've definitely had a lot of cravings, but it's strange- after the first week, I started thinking in terms of "if I have a cigarette now, I'll have to start back at day 1." And that, along with a sweet, supportive boyfriend has been enough to motivate me. I guess it's true that when you're ready to quit, you can do it. Drunkbrunch had some great advice that has also helped tremendously.

It's amazing to think that I'm now a non-smoker.

Maybe I'll start blogging again too......

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Thievery

I've been seeing a lot of "Ron Paul" signs around lately, most of them consisting of a piece of paper with his name and "'08" in crappy handwriting. And every time I think "this guy is running one of the most half-assed campaigns in history. But this morning, while driving to work on the toll road I saw a (more official looking) campaign sign on one of the overpasses that almost stopped me in my tracks. Apparently, it's his official campaign logo. A similar sign can be found here.

I'm sure some of you (Beatles fans) have seen this before. Being that I am a devout Beatles fan, and love everything Beatles, I checked out the Cirque du Soleil show at the Mirage in Vegas (Love) in September, which was beyond excellent, by the way. And also at the Mirage was the newest lounge/bar: the Revolution Lounge:

Notice any similarities? Not only is Ron Paul running a half-assed campaign, he can't even come up with his own logo. Makes you wonder how he would represent us as president. Guess it's a good thing the guy has no shot at winning.

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